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Next To Me

My musing on the song Next to Me.

Here are the lyrics first –

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Emeli SandéNext To Me

You won’t find him drinking at the tables
rolling dice and staying out til three
you won’t ever find him being unfaithful
you will find him, you’ll find him next to me

You won’t find him trying to chase the devil
for money, fame, for power, out of grief
you won’t ever find him where the rest go
you will find him, you’ll find him next to me

Next to me ooooh (3X)
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

When the money’s spent and all my friends have vanished
and I can’t seem to find no help or love for free
I know there’s no need for me to panic
cause I’ll find him, I’ll find him next to me

When the skies are gray and all the doors are closing
and the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
well, all I need is a hand to stop the tears from falling
I will find him, will find him next to me

Next to me ooooh (3X)
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

When the end has come and buildings falling down fast
when we spoil the land and dried up all the sea
when everyone has lost their heads around us
you will find him you’ll find him next to me

Never in my life have i met someone like him
I’m blown away by his love for me
if you ever wonder where it is you’ll find him
you will find him, you will find him next to me

Next to me ooooh (3X)

You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

Next to me ooooh (3X)

You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

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At this time I don’t have a “special someone” like the “he” in the above song. But while listening to it on the radio today something else came to mind that I do have. Another kid of “faithful” standing next to me.

First off, that kind of “he” isn’t something most people get to experience. So to put your hope in it happening one day could be setting you up for disappointment and depression. Some find the “he” in their religion. Again, while that may work for some, it doesn’t work for all. There is yet another “he” from the song that still applies.

That part of your genetic make up, your personality, the way you look, the part of you that is part of who you are that maybe you don’t even like, you might even despise and hate it. Well, it just may be the part of you you need to learn to appreciate.

I was me for the beginning of my life, then I lost myself for a long while. I was used, manipulated, walked on and treated like the bottom of the barrel. When the me part of me would try to surface I was put down, preached about and scolded so I kept myself repressed. I was convince that I needed to crucify that part of me cause it was carnal, selfish, and would get in the way of letting God use me. But in reality, wither you believe God made you or you evolved, you can not get rid of who you were made to be.

You can suppress it and even forget it for a while, but here is where you need to appreciate it. So many things in life use you and leave you but your true self is faithful. That part of you that you might even hate still loves you no matter what. It won’t leave you or forsake you, it will always be there.

Learning to love every natural part of yourself is where you will find you actually have strong feet to stand on. Feet that have deep roots like the old trees. There are parts of you that can find water, can find nurture, that can make you strong and stable. Many times those part of you are the parts you were inclined to reject and others tried to squish out of existence. If you want to reach for the sky, take in the rays of life, you’re gonna need your own two virtual feet to hold you up. The more you accept you, the higher you can reach.

When I woke up and left those people behind who used me I was surprised to find pieces of myself still there. My personality, what made me me wasn’t dead, it was just waiting patiently for me.

There is such strength in loving ones self and you can accomplish so much more when you do. You can better love others when you truly love yourself. For when you accept who you are and embrace it you learn to accept the differences in others as well and embrace them for who they are. You no longer have to be afraid of what you don’t understand or what you were told was bad and wrong. You can accept people the way they are with out feeling the need to change them. You can actually began to love unconditionally.

My daughter and I love the Glee version –

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